I recently had a couple of counseling sessions with the Co-ordinator of our section which was a result of me doing something that got me in trouble. Anyhow, those two session made me realize something about us. Most of us make descisions according to the people involved rather than our values. Our values are basically the our own personal laws. Often we make descision out of peer pressure or merely to do a favor or please somebody. Those descision usually disagree with our values. I myself have made descisions like those. Dares that I didn’t want to do but I completed them just for the sake of the people around me. We know that what we are doing is wrong yet we silence our conscience and continue to do the wrong because of people. But how important are people when you yourself aren’t important in your own eyes? When you don’t respect your values and yourself then nobody respects you. Because on people’s eyes you are only what you appear to be. True appearances don’t matter, but you don’t need to potray an image that disagrees with your personality delibrately.
Be one of the strong ones, who people look up to and are ready to follow. These people rise above everyone else and survive longer in the society. Be the one that stands out in this weak and unfair system, not one of the weak ones who create it.
We are all different yet beautiful in our own ways. We are each given unique qualities that define us. Some of us have certain abilites that make us stand out and some of us don’t. But that doesn’t make us any less great nor does it give anybody any reason to hate us. Not everybody can like us and nor do they mattter. The people who matter most are the ones that love us for our differences. Because it is these differences that add color to the black and white world around us. We light up the world with our beauty. We are different yet united. Our differneces should be embraced, rather than shuned. Becuase we color the world and we color it bright and beautiful.
They lurked in shadows, looking for preys, to feed their hungry mouths. They abducted people, enclosing them in their arms, scarring them for life. You knew who they were and what they did, but you never cared enough to raise voice. They took away the people around you, one by one.Your mind screamed, your heart shed bitter tears and your soul shattered in anguish, but what use were they, when your tongue was a silent spectator. Your silence, became your weakness, their strength. They destroyed your loved ones, fed on their screams, you never uttered a word. Your words, drowned in fear, never made a difference. You lost all your loved ones and today, when you are all alone, they won’t come to destroy you, because you’re already destroyed, at the hands of your own silence.
So many people, so many expectations. Everybody wants me to change according to their choice. expectations are good when they kept me going, but when there are too many of them they just become a burden on me, an obstacle. I’m surrounded by so many people that love me because I changed according to their liking. People are never satisfied or happy. They always want something more. If someone wants one thing another person want something else entirely. They say they love me for who I am but who I am is not what they want. They want something else. And all this this time, while I tried to please them all, I lost my identity. I don’t know who I am anymore. What made me special is no longer there. And strangely I can’t seem to remember myself. They lost me and so did I.