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Friday Post #7: New Year Resolutions and Memory Jars.

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Okay I am late again. Sorry :3 But anyways.. Happy New Year!! 😀 I know I am late for that, too. Sorry, again.

Every New year we all go like, “New year, new me.” We make a list of resolutions to change ourselves, be a better person, make a difference, achieve something, blah blah blah. We even make the efforts but a few days in and we forget those resolutions and we are back to our old habits. The point I’m trying to make is not that we can’t change but the fact that we don’t need the New Year to make that effort. I believe that if you want to change you would start making an effort right now. Forget new year’s eve, every new day brings you an opportunity to start over. It’s your day, your moment, your life. You can be anything that you want to be. Doesn’t matter if it’s new year’s eve, 3 in the morning, mid of July, of 5 in the afternoon; if you want to make a difference you should make an effort to do so.

And there are some like me. For the past 3-4 years I have been trying to keep a daily diary. Like for the first few days of every January I would write an entry. As the days would go by, I would either forget or be too lazy. The entries became infrequent until they stopped altogether. I’m some of you of have been there. So this year I will try something different: a Memory Jar. Basically what you do is write down a one-liner or a small paragraph about something that made you happy on a piece of paper and put that paper in a jar. And you do this through-out the year and at the end of the year you empty the jar and read those pieces of paper. So this way your memories would be preserved and you can take out and read your memories whenever you want. 🙂

I found this post with these amazing ideas. You should check it out: http://www.steamykitchen.com/19992-memory-jar.html

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Fading.

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Sometimes you are overcome will a gripping feeling. It’s like you are screaming but no sound comes out. It’s like someone is binding you, holding you back, restraining you. It feels like your head is about to burst and you feel like crying. You suddenly feel burdened as if your shoulders are supporting the weight of the world. Like your heart is in chains. You feel like breaking the chains and throwing the burden off but there is nothing to throw away. You open your mouth to speak but words desert you. You feel like you are drowning and there are a lot of people there but their backs are to you and not a single sound escapes your mouth. Not one of them turns. And you just keep sinking to the bottom. Silently. Bound in chains, your mouth gagged. You feel the world slip through your fingers and there is nothing you can do about it. You can’t scream, you can’t cry for help. You just watch the world leave you. Everything becomes a blur. And slowly, with each passing moment you fade away, to the blackness of the sea. 

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Friday Post #5 Know yourself

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Recently I’ve realized something; you will always feel weak and vulnerable unless you know yourself well and accept yourself the way you are.

Knowing yourself well includes knowing your good and bad qualities, the way you react to certain kinds of people, what are your feelings on certain kinds of occasions. Earlier on I was always more or less surprised at my own reactions at times or confused as to what made triggered such and such reaction in me. However lately I’ve begun to analyze myself a lot. I notice the kind of thoughts that rush into my mind as a reaction to the situation. Though I don’t ponder over it there and then obviously because I am so overcome with emotion but later on I do think about it and I know myself much clearly now.

Accepting yourself for who you are is more or less the most integral part of your personality. When you aren’t ready to accept yourself for who you are you mostly try to change yourself usually around the example of someone else. Which is bad for you. It could break you. It’s what leads to insecurities which again is not good. When you accept yourself for who you are you begin to appreciate yourself for the good qualities in you and try to improve yourself for the bad qualities.

At the end, when you know yourself well you are in control of yourself and you know what kind of reaction you might give and you try to avoid the more violent ones.

Ramadan: Finding Inner Peace

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Okay so we’re halfway through Ramadan. Whew! Time fly’s so fast in this month. anyhow, sorry for being totally MIA, my internet wasn’t working.

During Ramadan, I find this inner peace that’s impossible to find during the busy days of the rest of the year. There is something relaxing about keeping a fast during which you not only abstain from eating but all sinful acts too. After Fajr prayers (Dawn) I have a habit of reciting Quran. And must I tell you, it’s so relaxing. It’s that time of the day when all the world outside is coming to life, the birds are chirping while the rest of the world sleeps. In that time, while reciting Quran I feel strangely connected to God. I feel the same connection while praying to God on the nights of Ibadat (praying to God.) It’s in those moments that I feel the most sincere while I beg for forgiveness. I treasure these kind of moments.

So you see there is thing about Ramadan, you not only fast from dawn to sunset, you learn to have patience, and the importance of helping the poor. But most of all you learn to thank God for every little thing you have. When you have spent the entire day with an empty stomach and everything seems delicious to you, you thank God that he made you this fortunate that you have so much to eat. All those things that you hate to eat are all blessings for which you forgot to thank God. Along with this you also get an insight to the lives of all those people who go days without eating anything because they can’t afford it. But nevertheless we can never know exactly how much those people suffer through everyday.

Ramadan is a very blessed month for all of us. I love Ramadan and the feeling that comes with it. But I can not deny how much I am waiting for Eid. (The three days of celebration at the end of Ramadan.) It’s my favourite time of the year. Until then it’s all busy.

Choices

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I’ve realized something about life; it’s all about balance and judging the situation that you’re in and making the right decison. We always have a choice. When we are suck in a situation and we ask for advice, we get two types of advice, both opposing each other. While both seem right it is upto us to make the right choice regardless of the person who is giving us this advice. When we are stuck in a relationship we can either chose to let go or hold on. There is no one simple rule that applies to every situation. It’s all about judging the situation and making the right choice that leaves us in a better position.

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She lost him.

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She leaned her head against the wall, tears streaming down her face. In her hand her cellphone buzzed at his call. She answered the call. 

      “Hey,” she breathed. “What happened?”

      “I forgot something,” he said his voice tight.

      “What?” She said, her breath ragged. 

      “I love you,” he said and cut the call before she had the chance to reply. And in that moment she knew that she had lost him. 

I Lost My Bone.

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Something is wrong with me. Something is definately wrong with me. I am the type of the girl who crys at movie/drama scenes. I mean I literally cry. Those kind of scenes when the girl or the boy leaves his significant other just to protect them and they actually hurt the other person so he/she would hate them and it would be easy to leave. And all this time they are appearing like a total mean and hateful person who doesn’t care but inside they are hurting really bad. That really gets my water works working. And I smile when the girl and the guy finally get together. 

But lately I have been watching a lot of TV shows and there are a lot of sad scenes and happy ones but my expression stays blank. It’s like I’ve lost the sensitively romantic bone in my body. It doesn’t affect me. Earlier I could literally feel how the person must be feeling but now I’m like, “Aw, come on! It can’t be that bad!” Seriously? I don’t work that way. I like being the touchy sensitive person. I don’t want to be made out of stone.